I’ve been MIA lately.
Not just from here but from all things God and religion related. My relationship with God feels strained lately for no reason at all. I just can’t seem to smash through the wall I have put up…
Explain that to me?
I feel so distant from God lately. I have been avoiding my devotionals. Finding every excuse in the world to not talk to Him. And I have absolutely no idea why. One minute I’m strong and fiercely dependent on Him and then I feel so far from Him I might as well claim He doesn’t exist to me. Which feels terrible.
Where do these walls come from? I mean would understand a little bit – give myself some slack – if it actually was a legit reason to why I was behaving this way. But nope, just want to watch Netflix. Just rather stare at my phone for countless wasted minutes for no reason at all but to avoid talking to our Father, our God.
WHAT IN THE WORLD IS WRONG WITH ME?
PLEASE GOD SAVE ME! SAVE ME FROM THE DEVILS HOLD.
I miss you.
I need you.
I love you, Lord.
Please forgive me in my absence, but please remove the devils grasp on my attention span. Please remove the distractions and help me press pause in the days to be with You, to settle my soul with Your words, guidance and love. I need You, Lord. Please save my soul.
I need Your strength, Lord.
I need Your guidance, Lord.
I need YOU, Lord. Only You can heal my soul.
